“Here is the test to find whether your mission on Earth is finished: if you’re alive, it isn’t.”-Richard Bach
I can’t believe that it’s been a month plus since returning to the mainland. I was foolish enough to think that a little rest and returning to my old stomping grounds would make me ok and ready to roll again. Boy was I wrong!
For one week, I floated between sleep and half wakefulness. Sleep returned me to Maui, the mountains and the ocean. Reality pushed me out into the traffic, highways and new construction areas. I found stores that I had forgotten while on the island. Target, Sonic half price drinks and home-style BBQ.
I spent a couple of moments with a very ill uncle prior to his death and caught a brief glimpse of his smile when I mentioned Hawaii since this was the place he wanted to live. During my return, the weather reminded me of it’s temper; changing from cold to hot then back to cold. Other times the sky remained grey, dismissal and unforgiving. The storms covered me with huge droplets that carried leafs and broken flower petals down the small rivers along the road.
So now I shake the strings of drowsiness and move with purpose. I work, and rearrange my life and all the things that were a part of my Maui life. There are still those stories to tell and I will share them soon. I’ve also pulled out my manuscript, a romance novel, and shaken the dust from it and pushed myself to clean it up, make it tighter and prepare it for review.
Most of all, I’ve taken time to watch and learn. I placed bird feeders in my fathers yard on an old tree that is losing life but continues to stand. Now my mornings consist of a cast of characters like a squirrel that forgets that he isn’t a bird as he hangs upside down on the feeder stealing what he can. Two blue jays and a male and female cardinal add color to the neighborhood. There is also a group of birds, five in fact, with royal blue heads and black bodies that I call “the royal blues heads.” Two rabbits, doves, sparrows and other blackbirds with bright orange colors on their wings complete the family.
This nature moment calms me, helps me to acclimate to this place, where I now live. My body has stopped waking up at 3 a.m. Maui time and adjusted to the five-hour difference of the Midwest. The blog posts will return on a regular basis again. I just needed time to pull away, breath, remember and appreciate.
I’m ready to roll so look out world, here I come.